Yes folks, that's right. I'm in the middle of climbing my way out of a very deep depression hole, and more or less accepting of the fact that life sucks and I'm probably going to be relatively miserable for the rest of my life.
I'm starting summer school tomorrow. I have a last 12th grade math credit to pick up before I can get into college for computer programming, with the intent to become a game developer later on. Hurrah. Thus, 3 weeks of 8:30 to 2:15 schooling awaits me, back at the school I was so glad to have escaped.
I've gotten used to disappointment in life. Nothing ever really works out the way I'd like it to, and truthfully I think that's most of what's responsible for my depression, that and lack of energy(if you know me you know what I mean, if you don't know me then twiddle your thumbs and continue reading).
Beyond the schooling thing, I've done next to no writing. I don't really have any inspiration or will to do so.
I still haven't found work either, and I'm getting more and more discouraged. After looking for 3 years with no results that shouldn't surprise anyone.
I broke up with my girlfriend this weekend as well, and we're staying friends which is good. If things work out, they work out, if not, then they won't. I'm actually very surprised how little this seems to be affecting me.
My xbox is also out of commission, and I'm broke until I get the $660+ owed to me by my mother, which is going towards an xbox 360 elite(i have heard few reports of them going down or RRODing) and likely a first gen iPod touch which I'll hopefully be able to find for under $150. the rest of the money is going towards the exorbitant tuition fees for college.
With any luck at some point this summer I can find myself a job, but I doubt it. I fucking hate this city and I can't wait till I'm done college and can look for employment outside of the city. I've never liked this place.
I don't hold out much hope for my future, but I think I might be able to make something of myself and get my life back on track just as long as I can get out of here sometime soon(that college course is 3 and a half years so hopefully right after that). I'm just tired of feeling completely unfulfilled.